DEPESSION, AND WHY I HATE IT!!!

 I have never had much of a problem with depression.  Okay, I admit, I get depressed, but never deeply.  I let myself wallow for a few hours then head off to kick it's ass.  But this year....

Between the isolation of Covid 19, not getting to see my kids, not being able to go to a movie, packing stuff up for the kitchen remodel, (Oh some great depression in that too.) and one of my oldest friends managing to keep up his drug habit so well, that he pulled out in front of a car, and now has now NO feeling from his nipples down...of course Donald "let me tell you another one" Trump is still in the White house doesn't help....

I cannot seem to shake my depression this year.  I want too, Lord knows I do.

So I have been trying to keep busy.  I finished six of my latch hook projects.  I would finish more, but my hands hurt like hell.  

I am trying to pack stuff up in the kitchen, but I have this thing about packing.  Ex husband moved me so much and did NOTHING to help pack or unpack, I have issues with it now.  No shock there.  If my friend Heather hadn't helped me I would NOT be as far as I am. 

Also since getting white appliances is three times more expensive than black or stainless steel, I am stuck with that and need to refigure what I want to do in the kitchen.  Lucky me.

And if my idiot friends do NOT stop telling me to vote for Trump, I have knives and I know how to throw them.  I so hate that man, I would fuck my ex husband again rather than vote for that piece of crap, he is one of the reasons I am depressed.

The man knew about this virus and did NOTHING.  I kind of think that him catching it finally is karma kicking his ass.  What is wrong with this country that it voted a man who NEVER held public office into the highest in the land?!  

Folks you voted for a reality show star!!!!

I shouldn't ramble on and on about someone who is not worth my time, but I am amazed at the intelligent women who vote for him.  Men just can ignore the truth, I get them, but I feel so betrayed by my gender every time I see a "Women for Trump" banner.  God help us, because the morons wearing MAGA hats are not going to do it.

But what choice did we have?  I don't trust a Clinton as far as I can throw one.  Sigh.

Yea, the depression lives on....

I just want to take my daughter out for pizza.  I want to take my son to the movies and buy him tons of popcorn.  I want my house in order again.  I want a president who doesn't go on and on how he aced a completion test that you give to dementia suffers.  I want to go into a store without a mask.  I can barely breath without one, with one, not a fun time.  I want to make love with my husband outside of the state of Arizona, like on a proper vacation.

I need to hear that there is something to look forward too.  A vaccine, would be a good start.

Well I'm going to sign off here, and go and pack a box or two out of the kitchen, then I will plop down and watch a film.  Hopefully a comedy.  It's time to get rid of the funk!!!!!!!!

2020 must end.