In my Head
In my head I'm still in my 30's, dancing to David Bowie in my living room. But there is a cast change. Instead of the waste of skin that was my ex husband, it's Bill. We dance happily to "Let's Dance", and collapse exhausted on the couch.
Glen and Rachel are "normal" worrying about collage and if they were going to miss their boyfriend or girlfriend.....
Then I look at myself in the mirror and see more silver than brown. I change my 17 year old's pants, and it comes to me that I wasn't lucky enough to get a normal kids, and yet I love them like they are prize winners. But in my head.....
Working on my desk right now and I'm really sick of trying to find the desk it's self. After lunch I will dress myself and go for a walk and consider my goals for the year. I think I can meet them, and I'm going to kick butt and take names. I just need the freaking energy.
If only the will could do it....if only.
Glen and Rachel are "normal" worrying about collage and if they were going to miss their boyfriend or girlfriend.....
Then I look at myself in the mirror and see more silver than brown. I change my 17 year old's pants, and it comes to me that I wasn't lucky enough to get a normal kids, and yet I love them like they are prize winners. But in my head.....
Working on my desk right now and I'm really sick of trying to find the desk it's self. After lunch I will dress myself and go for a walk and consider my goals for the year. I think I can meet them, and I'm going to kick butt and take names. I just need the freaking energy.
If only the will could do it....if only.
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