Graduation

My autistic 17 year old is going to graduate high school a week from today.  And I'm feeling....well I'm feeling.

I'm nervous.  I'm sad.  And I'm proud.  Glen Fox Bigelow is going to finish school in May, become our ward (his father and mine) in August and in September I will apply for SSD for him so he has an income.  And during the fall I will look for a home for him so he will be safe and secure should anything happen to his father or I.

In two years I do this again for Rachel.

I told Bill this morning I think I'm autistic too.  I don't like change.

I have been thinking back in my life.  I felt like this when Mom moved use from my childhood home to downtown Tucson. 

I felt like this when I graduated high school.

Got married.

Started collage.

Moved to Los Angeles.

Moved back to Tucson and got divorced.

Started dating again.

Got married again.

Had Glen.

Had Rachel.

Okay you get the idea?

I know all will be fine.  I will not let it be anything else for Glen.  And that is that.

So I'm off to do some personal stuff while I have the time to do it.  Then back to worik on the house for graduation night and getting ready for summer programs.  Wheeeeeee......