Just trying to get some Anger out, feel free to ignore this blog.

Dear Lois,

Not "Mom", a mother would not have put me through what you did.  A mother is suppose to be honest, be just admit mistakes.  YOU FUCKING LIED! 

Not just a little a whole lot!  You were so fucking pissed off at my father you lied to me for the rest of your life and made ME feel like everything bad in your life was MY fault.

If there is a hell you should be there, because everything I admired about you is GONE!!!  Because all of that was a lie!

So no longer will you be "mom", you are Lois or that bitch.  As we both know I don't normally hold a grudge but I seemed to be now.  I have forgiven so much when it has come to you, but THIS?! 

I hope someday I can forget and forgive, long before my death, but right now all I have is full out hate when I think of you.

Burn slowly Lois.

Kelly



Okay I think I have that out of my system, but I cannot tell you how good it felt to write that down.  It's like standing in a thunder storm and yelling at the noise.

I promise to write happier thoughts on Thursday.